unspoken vow

10 years ago we committed an act
A passionate act of love.
No words were spoken,
But a vow was made.
It’s been 10 years but the words still linger on my mind.
But you, you're nowhere to be found.
Skipped out of our universe like a stone across a placid lake
Your ripples reeking havic on the divine shores.
You left us behind.
Didn’t glance back.
What happened to our unspoken vow?
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The fateful night 10 years ago was bursting with lust
Love overflowed my glass.
The act flowed as easily as the stream down green mountain sides.
Let me take you back to that night
10 years ago
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Just like the millions of tiny stars overwhelm the night sky
Your sweet scent overwhelms my lungs as I draw a deep breath in.
I draw you closer to feel the rise and fall of your chest on my palm
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Like a strawberry with its seeds
My tender kisses begin to freckle your skin.
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Passion takes over your body as you run your fingers through my hair.
Your hands like the wind meandering through fields of lavender
Wanting to touch every strand and never let go
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Our anticipation rising exponentially with every second that passes
Like a waterfall, intensity swells with every inch as your hands slowly run down my sides
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A ripple of emotions runs through my body, like the ripples of water in a pond
I crave for your touch like a bee craves the nectarous taste of honey
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Looking into your eyes I see not two simple things
But rather many elements of your soul
Like the Sassafras tree the true beauty lies hidden in its tiny yellow flowers that make up its whole
For a moment I get lost in all that you are
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Your smooth skin sensually skims across mine
Treating me like the cream colored perfection that are the Magnolia petals
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The warmth of our bodies and hearts fill the room like the soft amber glow of a fire
Like the light wispy clouds envelop the regal peaks of Patagonia you delicately caresses my face
Chills as cold as the ice blue glaciers run up my spine
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Your body, the powerful waves of the ocean, repeatedly crash into me, the shore
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Two halves become one
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For a brief moment my body feels elevated and I become one of my fellow redwoods reaching for the bright blue sky
We get lost in every spiritual, exciting and erotic part of the moment
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Like an avalanche running down the mountain side pleasure runs through my body
Saturating every ounce of my being
My body can't handle any more of this addictive drug
A scream lets out the volcanic energy as my toes curl under
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Looking through the Hubble telescope the dark sky reveals the magic of the butterfly nebula
Spreading its lacey violet wings trillions of miles across the dark expanse
You were my telescope
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Your gentle kisses bring me back to earth with the same tranquility 'leaves contain when falling from a tree' - 'as a falling leave'
The weight of your body comforts me
Dun dun dun dun of your heart like raindrops on my window, soothe my soul
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Since that night I have never experienced such a strong soothing feeling
Or amazing connection
It’s been 10 years
10 years since...
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We made the decision for no protection.
Together
We were both ready
Excited
And if you weren't you sure fooled me
No protection
Simple
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But something else came with that decision
We never sat down and talked about
The vow
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But its presence was known
We made an unspoken vow
One that would last and last
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At least it was supposed to
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Nine months later
Sitting in the waiting room
Excitement in the air was so crisp
If bitten into an indulgent crunch would reverberate
Throughout the walls like a child biting into a fresh picked peapod
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For about 7 years our house was flooded with love and smiles
Slowly but surely nerves became rattled
We asked less questions
Touched less
Cared less
Respected less
LESS
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Constantly our relationship became more and more transparent
Soon it was as fragile as dragonfly wings
With any strong wind or single raindrop ready to tear
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There were nights I would lay awake next to you
But feel oceans away
Many hours I would spend wondering how we got here
How did we transition from the passion, the sensual touch, the addictive drug of pleasure?
To here
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Constantly yearning for more
But every time I reach out my hand draws back empty air
Although thy heart would ache if I let you go
(I could do it)-say more eloquently
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When we committed our erotic rendezvous we became the second most important
We gave up the right to make decisions based on what’s right for us
Our responsibility is to them
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What is best for our children?
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In times this means we must sacrifice our wants
They come first in everyway
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At some point you let our vow sail away
And here I sit n the dock counting the waves which pass by
Wondering
Which one will bring you round?
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Ever since I could remember I have been an independent soul
I contain the ability to take care of myself
And have gained the strength to lift m children’s hearts up to their dreams
We can make it alone.
But we shouldn’t have to make due
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10 years ago,
Together
We made a vow
An unspoken vow but its strength runs deep in our souls
Together we have to give them the confidence that their dreams can be reality
Without your presence they are living in constant deficiency
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Getting you to remember the words we never spoke is beyond my control
I cannot clip the wings upon which you soar
I can only hope that one day the words will resonate in your ears
Haunt you at night
Leave you with many a sleepless night and restless days
(Until you remember where your responsibility lies)-say different
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For 10 years ago
Your sweet sent overwhelmed my body
I drew you closer
Passion took over your body
Waterfalls ran down my sides
Chills ran up my spine
The waves of the ocean crashed onto my shores
You were my telescope to my out of body experience
And the rain beating on my window bringing me back to earth
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You were the cosigner to our unspoken vow
That vow will never dissolve
Never waiver
(Now we are just waiting for your return)-say it profound
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Please leave any input.......I love praise but constructive critism is great as well: D
p.s. spelling and grammar always come last for me so don’t worry about that!

little fish

These poems are kinda my attempt at writting poems with a little more structure......they tend to get kinda cheesy when I try to rhyme but they are cute :D I wrote them around valentines day so yea....


Hey little fish!
Guess who I miss
The one who makes my heart go
swish swish
To be with you would be pure bliss
so for today I have just one wish
Be with me and grant me this one kiss <3


Although today you I can not see
I hope you spend a minute to think about me!
I am very far away
To make it all ok, there is nothing I can say
Just know that I love you
And will continue to do so as long as the ocean is blue
Don't let the distance get you down
I'll soon be coming around
Until we can reunite
keep my love always in your sight
Feel the warmth of my arms
wrapped around you keeping you safe
and one day again together we will be



Bittersweet is the distance that seperates our souls
everyday I think aout seeing your smile
I think about hearing your laugh
sharing your drink
and holding your hand
when I look and you're not around
my heart begins to ache
soon comes the realization that aches because I love you so dear
Everyday we are apart my love for you roots itself deeper
you are my hearts keeper
please keep it safe
for time and again I will come back to you
Sufficient words to express how deep my feelings go, there are few
As consistant as the morning dew caresses earch green sliver of grass
I promise my love for you will each day renew



So I really like the concept of this next poem but am having a super hard time finishing it :/
Sumerged in a world of beautiful clovers
I had to search all over
Until I found that one with a little something extra
Most clovers are happy with having three leaves
But the one I found has four
The sun enjoys kissing its surface
And its soul is free to soar

Every woman around you I feel have three dimensions
But you my love have four
The suns kiss reveals whats under your surface
And you eagerly let your spirit soar

Cool picture I rediscovered! Its my cousin Keith :D

revival flight

This is not one of my favorites but the concept I liked. Wrote it on the way home from college.

Gray warn faux leather

fluorescent strips along aisle

out dated checkered carpet

fasten seat belt when seated

cruising altitude of 10000ft

10 f

flying over oceans who's sapphire gaze reviles inner truths

its deep intensity provokes a curios eye inward

secrets held there hidden from even the honest beholder

Grandiose canons spark thoughts

huge expanse now lay empty lacking soil but captivating viewers

whats missing from the daily routine called life

creating an expanse of blue canvas laking the warm red flicker of heart

but viewers come from mile around to observe the inexplicably blue monotony

Regal mountains quake the confidence prestablished

what can stand beside white capped daunting mountains such as these and not once wonder what beauty is

hearty avalanches,snapped timbers,and rocky cliffs reassure one that beauty lies within the flaws

tray tables and seat backs in their upright position

descent to cold hard pavement begins

in the soul of ever traveler a flicker of renewal accompanies them to the awaited destination.

the rain in spain

One day I was walking up the many stairs we have around here on the way to class and saw water dripping off a ledge. I stopped and just watched it for awhile, observing how one drop when coming into contact with the ground dispersed into many drops catapulting themselves into a larger radius. I thought about how peoples efforts do the same thing. It takes one person to start something and then bam a number of other people take the idea and extend the radius of the effort. <3

one visceral shaped drop

desperately hanging onto the edge

gravity anxiously waiting to make it plummet towards the unforgiving pavement

so much potential contained in one little drop

the height so daunting

fear of he unknown keeps the drop holding tight

holding tight to what it knows

all the while imagining what could be

optimism begins to take control

slowly it peels the last five fingers of fear from the faithful ledge

with everything the drop has it starts its decent

closer and closer and closer to the ground

until......BAM......the surface is penetrated

one drops efforts suddenly splash into 1,000 directions

Potential Hidden b/w the Senses

This poem I wrote when I felt kinda lost at college. For me its a metaphor to the potential hidden in all of us kids. We all have the potential to achieve an unfathomable grace but first we must be able to leave the nest. and yes we may have a hard time at first and we may make some stupid decisions but that's all part of the journey. here you have it:D

A birds Flight

At a young age little chicklings eagerly leave the nest

unable to wait for the world they spread their wings and jump

the feeling is so new and magical that at first they forget to flap their wings and quickly begin to descend.

panic begins to set in

Looking in all directions for some kind of help

Second by second fast approaching the ground

And then by some miracle the bird remembers all it has to do is flap its little wings

the whole time it had the potential to fly but with out that magical feeling and temporary memory loss it would have never realized it.

Now this may have been the most graceful part is yet to come.

For a time period our feathered friend plays around with technique and adds its own style

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the length of time differs for every birdie

Eventually the bird reaches a level of grace not many can even fathom

the tips of its wings rise and fall

rise and fall

rise and fall

following the crests and troughs of a cosine wave

such grace which many strive for but few ever achieve

the potential lays hidden with in everyone

but only reveals itself to those who temporarily forget to do like the rest, experience that magical feeling of being 'free', and open their mind to the possibilities.

Potential Hidden Between the Senses

reasons unaware.

I wrote this one around the begining of first semester. I was going through a mix of really weird emotions.....most of which I couldn't explain. I wrote it while one day I just started crying. I felt as happy as a clam but tears just came rolling out. so i wrote while I cried. Enjoy :D

Tears gently roll down my cheeks
for reasons which i'm unaware
but who am i to stop such a beautiful thing
the familiar tingling of water filling the corners of her eyes
the water level slowly build in sync with everyones suspence
until the walls collape unable o hold all the emotion tainted liquid
slowly one tear slides down one rosey cheek
the first tear harshly drops to the chest
dispersing in all directions
the pace quickly increases
tear after tear run down that unforgivibly soft cheek
the tainted liquid begins to fill her green eyes faster than relief can come
a few droplets get caught in her long dark lashes
they capture the sunlight in such a way it sends a rainbow of colors into the universe
for a brief moment her soul opens for everyone to see
as the saturated lashes bow to nature
her soul once again sews itself shut
and sinks into the many layers o her being
hidding itself from danger
until the next cherished time
tears gently roll down my cheeks

Nineteen

I'm in the mood to add some of my poetry to my blog so I'll do just that :D Enjoy

29 eyelashes slowly reach for each other
When sweet embrace is achieved every muscle in her body relaxes
Lovingly intertwined they hold their position
Sun elegantly beating on her back
Hair flowing carelessly in the wind
101 pairs of eyes dangerously glancing in her direction
She sees not
But rather she feels
In every ounce of her body she feels
One deep heavenly inhale
As the air rushes in
The beauty is dispersed
Through every curve and crevice
To the darkest temptations held in her soul
The beauty of having life, love, and good health take over
Grateful for another day
Thankful for experiencing another moment such as that one
where 29 eyelashes hold their embrace and the beauty of life rushes in.
Nineteen 10-05-09

Sick of being sick

Can I just say being sick SUCKS! hahah I've been sick for the past week and a half. After going to the doctor three times they finally decided to prescribe me some meds :D so I'm on the track to recovery! Oh and can I say I know my body better than anyone else. I suggested the two things I could possible have the first time I went to the doctor......they said nah prob not the case.............many days later, after 4days of having a fever over 101 oh guess what you have pneumonia and infections in both ears! Hello? did I not say that when I came in the first time? Oh well I'm just happy that I finally am getting better.

On a very happy note I am pleased to share with you that I GOT ACCEPTED to the study abroad program that I applied for. I'll be studying in the Galapagos this fall semester with a focus in marine biology. Then hopefully over christmas break I will be able to meet my argentina family in brasil for the holidays. And In january I will return to Ecuador to study spanish in Guayaquil. Its one of the biggest cities there....2million people :O !!! I am super excited that I have this opportunity as just a sophmore :) Now I'll be working my butt off to make some money. If you have any ideas of a job or scholarships/grants I could apply for please give me the heads up! Thanks <3>

This poem is about my love of hot chocolate and how a hug can mean so much.

Bittersweet chocoate

frothy warm milk

a cube or two of sugar

residing in one saphire mug

Homogenized by that silver spoon

I see him from across the room

our eyes meet

a silent hello

we find ourselves looking at eachother again

I flash him a smile

asking permission for his embrace

like one tests their cup of hot chocolate

I wait for his smile to let me know i won't burn my tongue

casually we make our way twords eachother

one blows on the rich liquid while it rests in that silver spoon

until its safe to let it run down the throat

warming the body.

his body slowly warms me up

his irresistable aroma finds its way inside my mind

we hold our embrace

the marshmellows slowly begin to melt

as the tongue traps it between the roof of the mouth, the tough center can still be found

As I begin to melt he tightens his embrace

letting me know he's not going anywhere

sip by sip the hot chocolate is emptied from the mug and fills the stomach

as the bottom of the mug becomes visible the richest chocolate enters the body

his arms loosen

a quick kiss on the head lets me know he cares

one last tight squeeze before its over

an empty saphire mug sits on the table beside it rests a silver spoon

the body overwhelmed with a warm comfort

the bittersweet chocolate bites the tongue because the moment is over too soon

the mind in a euhoric state, dreaming of the next mug of delectable hot chocolate

Hot Embrace 11/16/09