shit happens

So lately I've been going through some shit and I just wanted to say thanks to all my friends who are there for support. wether they know what i'm going through or not them just being around is help enough. Thanks to those who didnt ask questions when I didn't want to talk. Thanks to those who listened on the way to class when I was ready to talk. Thanks to those who did me crazy favors and acted like it was nothing out of the norm. And thanks to all the amazing hugs which make my day all that much better. Shit happens but thats why I'm glad to have friends like all of YOU!!!!!


Everytime he talks to you, you get this feeling
you've been searching for the word to describe it
but nothing seems to fit
ell let me help you out
VULNERABLE
he wants to know answers your not ready to give
makes you feel bad no matter the answer
puts you on the spot
doesn't listen
tears down your shield
and doesnt stop there
he finds your weaknesses, skewers them and throws them on the grill
you ignore him
he persues you harder
you fee like you have no control
fal asleep in the fetal postition
the only way you feel safe
he's got you so vulnerable
now what will he do with you
you hold hugs longer
hoping the arms holding you in will hold him out
hold peoples hands
wishing they never leave you alone
vulnerable, girl
he's got yu so vulnerable

goodbye

Silently standing in the middle of a canyon
emptiness surrounds me
the tall walls cast their judgmental shadows
all my energy has been used up
but all i have produced is an empty void
a river of tears runs through my canyon
tears I've cried for him, tears I've cried for myself
tears i wish to cry no more
you've dried up all my emotional ports
i tried to help you but i hurt myself in the process
luckily i have someone who is willing to old my hand
he helps me think about my own needs
he tells me to just ignore you and that may just be what i have to do
it will take time to fill my canyon
but with the support of others i ill fill it with love and happiness
with you around my efforts will be cancelled out
so i have to say goodbye
and focus on y canyon and filling it to the top
the blue sky will again be within my reach
4/13/10 Sitting in sw and inspiration strikes!